New Year Eve

Hohoho...yoooo hoooo...2009 has came to an end....it was somehow a bitter- and- sweet year and a new evolution year for me...many happy and bad things happened to me throughout this year...

My eve started off with my sociology lecture with my super unwillingness feel of waking up...my body still sticked on the bed as my 6 alarms failed to wake this lazy female up...haha...I was planning to skip the Socio class at first because i really can't wake up (NG...NG)...but i forced myself to do so and dressed very "chinchai-ly" which had led someone said that i've grown fat...what the...!!!

Had my lunch at Tesco with TA23 classmates and thanks to the 100 plus that i'd ordered..it stuffed my stomach till my formal wear almost burst..haha...

Started my Mass Com presentation as the media group at 2.00 pm...we managed to pull of a great presentation despite having no much preparation...*applaus*...thanks to my teammates too for their cooperation...

There were many other classes who presented their Mass Com too and i managed to be a busy-body at Siew Cheng's tutorial room after her presentation ended...haha...


Siew Cheng and i ( i'm a shorty )...


Crystal and i...

We made sushi at Siew Cheng's house after our classes ended and the two treated me as a person who don't enter the kitchen...walao...i was a virgin in making sushi and after i showed some of my cooking skill and other skills, my dear Siew Cheng came out with a phrase "入得厨房，出得学堂" (means can do well in both housework and academic )..haha..

I know that there's no point for just blowing my own trumphet...let the photos tell ya'll the story lo....


Siew Cheng belanja me this agar-agar...really nice and
refreshing...i'm loving it...( she made it herself de)..




Tadaa....yitmun's first plate of sushi...

I mannaged to make a plate of beautiful, pretty, cute and "fat" (coz i put too much rice) sushi despite being teased by the two girls for looking uncertained, blurred and not pro during the making process..haha...


jjang jjang jjang jjang... ^.^



The 3 sushi made by 3 different ppl using
the same ingredients...(purple nail - me,
light-coloured nail- Crystal, non-coloured
one- Siew Cheng)...i think mine one is the best...

Time for creativity.....!!!!

Siew Cheng's art work... (i'm speechless)...haha

My art work...it's really a piece of precious

art with 2 dots of wasabi..keke

Siew Cheng's again (my fingers made her

sushi looked better..haha)

Tapao it...

All tapao-ed

Went to Crystal's house....

Played with the fake cam-coder..hehe

( as a media group mah...)

Headed to FIRE ( u got the fire...haha) for dinner..

I have too many new year resolutions that they are kinda difficult for me to list them out one by one...but i do really hope that all of my family members and friends will have a good year... do appreciate the one that you love and the one who loves you...do treat everyone sincerely and be grateful to them... Ah...too much lecturing and moraling le... anyways, thanks for reading this essay-like and bored post...and..

HAPPY NEW YEAR....

yoo hoo...so sexy...

Ngek ngek...has been yoo hoo-ing since yesterday and yoo hoo-ed with no reason... My girls were like "what the heck with her???" keke...

Had my writing for business presentation yesterday and being a group filled with guts, my group volunteered to become the first group to present...there's "udang di sebalik mee" for volunteering to be the first group to present...haha... there was a bitchy in my business tutorial class who was presenting yesterday too...she claimed that she was wearing formal wear for the presentation...but in fact, that bitchy wore a "see-through" blouse...i didn't notice at first and my girls were talking about her blouse...and when i met her, tadaaaaa......really a see-through blouse wor...!!! but i din yoo hoo-ed when i saw her...coz i did not feel that it's sexy...but it's just...damn geli and bitchy lo...feel like she was going to "menggoda" our tutor..keke...but our new tutor is a LADY...ngek ngek..her entire outfit was really a NO NO....!!!

UTAR memang boleh la...there is only 1 out of 4 stalls that is still operating now...it's really driving me crazy...how can a cafeteria be like this ? explored the entire UTAR with Crystal today hunting for food, walking from block B to block I under the hot sun...and the result was really disappointing...sob sob... UTAR cafe...i BEG you...please resume your operation la...how am i going to survive till 18th january ??? It's really not a joke...

Next week (week 12) will be a hectic week for me...Presentations are everywhere...presentations colour my life...nope...presentations bleach my life...hehe...here's my schedule for week 12 presentation...

Tuesday : Marketing
Wednesday : Management
Thursday : Web Page Design
Friday : Sociology

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Saturday + Sunday : Shopping Presentation..

haha

This coming Thursday will be my turn as the media group for Mass Com presentation luuu... All the best to me and my team...haha...

Hope to reunite with Hyung during the days i'm in KL...hehe..

Thanks for reading...good bai..

#p/s : thanks crystal for fetching me to ktm station...da da da da da da da..

Sorry to Papa...

I'm very sorry to my dad for not able to have a proper conversation with him for almost a week. I was sleeping whenever he called me at night and he will quickly end the call when he knew that i was sleeping... he was "paiseh" and considerate that his daughter needs some rest...

Being a daughter, i'm constantly unable to perform my roles...role conflict....

Yitmun !!! why can't you stand a bit longer so that i can have a talk with dad? why do you always feel tired at night ? Don't you know that your dad is also tired ? Your dad worked till late late at night but still will call you up despite feeling extremely tired? What had you done to your dad ?

I really wanted to have a proper conversation with dad...but even myself also can't figure out why...i will KO once the clock hits 10pm...this is the most dangerous time for me...my battery will run flat at this time...

I feel really bad for daddy because i can't talk properly to him...he is the one who always comforts me whenever i feel bad and depressed...my heart aches whenever he said "tell me...tell me what had happened? are you sick? dad is worried"... i know that dad is always worrying about me...i tried my best not to make him worry so much but damn yitmun...i still failed to do so...

Dad is the one who taught me a lot of things...things that can't be learned from the textbooks and lecture slides..he taught me to calm down, view problems as challenges, grab any opportunities to learn more stuff, how to see things in different perspectives, not to be a dumber, and etc...

I still remember how i really broke down weeks ago...haunted by my headache, i cried like no tomorrow when i finally called up my dad...i refrained from calling up my dad because i was sure that i will broke into tears when i called him up...however, a failure once again...i made him worried again..sigh...!!!

Thanks to dad who has always been so patient to me..thanks him for not spoiling me since i'm young and instructed me to do this and that when i was still a kid...thanks for not "allowing" me to give up whenever i attempted to do so...and that's the only reason why i'm still working hard till now...thanks him for everything...otherwise, i would behave like a "lembik" person or just simply a very dumb girl...a girl who doesn't know much and will just see things superficially...

p/s : i'm not those "princess-like" girl who most of my new friends perceive me like this...albeit being "siao" and ridiculous sometimes, don't take things for granted...i do not mean that my friends need to converse with me in a serious or no-nonsense mood (i'm a silly person instead)...but please drop some terms of respect...tq...

Bbyong...

Christian Dior...

Hahaha...i guess my blog is full of fungi now... well, nothing else lo...assignment saja...

Some unhappy things happened in the morning...however, i would not elaborate much on it so that it will not spoil the mood and i think that it's not neccessary for me to do so... i have my own measurement for blogging...

Today was my first presentation for this semester, that is Mass Communication.. we did an event and a mock press conference for our company, Christian Dior... my group mates are Chee Kin, Carmenn, Boon Ping and Crystal...

The event started at 2.15pm but i arrived at the venue at 12 ++ pm to get the decorating job done... Setting up the backdrop, arranging the desks and chairs, setting up the "special" stage and the table for press conference...these are all the jobs that i did with my bare foot ( it's hiring to wear heels to climb here and there, k???)...

The event finally started and we were kinda nervous at first... The PR Officer, Chee Kin did a great job for being the emcee...but he was kinda hilarious towards the end of our event...he bursted into laughter which drove all of us "???" (the same thing happened to me for last sem's talkshow")..haha...

Overall, our presentation as the host group was a success according to the comment from Mr. Abel and Ms. Suvitha... We showed our enthusiasm during the event and the judges liked the way we answer the questions... I am happy with it too...ngek ngek ngek...

By the way, i was kinda suprised that Chui Yee dropped me a visit in Utar today..it happened during the mass com presentation too...i rushed to meet her during my break time and managed to chat a while with her...I hope 5D will have a reunion soon..i really miss u guys...who will be in-charge of this reunion? Assistant monitor ??? or the Treasurer who "boomed" me in Facebook for getting the chance to be the representative in giving a short speech to express our gratitude to the teachers during our graduation performance last year??? hahaha....


Chui Yee and fatty yitmun... ^.^

Sorry for not able to show the pictures of our presentation because the photos are with the media group...i'll try to get from them...hahahaha...

Ladies and gentlemen, thanks for spending your precious time to "scan through" my blog...(keke...addicted to the emcee's speech)...

okkkk...that's all for today... bbyong!!!

Random

Hihihi...has abandoned my blog for a while....

Nothing much special had happened recently.........just busy busy busy and busy lo...

Bad things keep on happening to me... My words got twisted by some stupid fools...severe headache..........haih....

My headache had started a week ago. At first, a tablet of painkiller will stop me from suffering from the pain. It increased to 2 tablets a day later ( 2 tablets still worked for me )....then...the worst thing came....the painkiller can't stop the pain for even a while...i know something bad and serious was happening to me...However, i still need to take my Webpage written test on Wednesday night despite of the pain...i endured the pain as hard as i could...and i believed that i screwed up my webpage test...=.=

I went home after the test and i tried to do some of my work...damn...my head really won't listen to its owner...the pain attacked me again and i had no choice but to SLEEP...i refrained myself to take some pills because i limit myself to 2 tablets the most per day...i was able to sleep at around 12am but i was awaken at 3.15am due to the pain...

Started with Sociology class, everything was fine in the morning...however, perhaps i didn't like to see all those coding, the pain strike again during webpage tutorial...( why everything must happen during webpage huh? ) I rushed out from the class and the pain for this time was really a "beh tahan" one...i called my parents and i was told to consult the doctor ASAP...i need to endure for4 hours more due to the coming class that day...

I rushed home and went straight away to Old Town for a consultation...the doctor prescribed me some antibiotics and painkiller for 4 days doses...I was "warned" to take the painkiller in a real full stomach because it's a type of painkiller for surgery purpose...I've been taking the antibiotics for two and a half days already and everything seems to be tasteless for me now...it seems like i have lost my tastebuds now... Every food tastes dull........

I went into a coma condition for a straight 6 hours on Friday evening...After texting Hyung, i took a "nap" at 6pm but ended with waking up at 12 am... Messages, alarms...everything...i didn't notice that... (sorry to my housemate and friends who texted me at that time...especially to Hyung whom i promised to continue to text after my nap...)



The bunch of medicine i need to take (plus my supplement)...

I'm still have not recovered from the pain...i wonder when will i be set free from this pain...Everyone, please take care of your health...

My press conference will be on week 9 and no discussion has been done yet...hahaha... God Bless Me........

Babai.. BByong...

Communication is Hard...!!!!!

Had been emo-ing with myself every night these days.

I re-read Yap Fook Lim's "Training Ground" post on his blog and found that what he said was really true. It is very hard to be a good person. You need to smile when you are happy and you STILL need to do so even though you are extremely frustrated. You need to keep on calming yourself although you are going to explode soon. Man, i am a normal person too..how am i going to withstand these ups and downs if i were to keep on suppressing myself ??? it is just another way for me to get mental disorder soon or later....

I tried very hard to control myself ever since i started my Uni life.. I've tried to control my anger towards problems, things and human behavior that i really can't tolerate with. I know that being a really straightfoward person won't make things better. It would just become a shit in the end.

But how can i release my stress and my view if i were to endure and swallow all the dissatisfaction when matter comes everytime??? People around me often show their emo-ness and i can be understanding to them. I won't be angry if people around me emo. But if i were the one who emo, sure the people around me will think that i'm scary and hard to approach. This is what i gained and realised ever since i was in SS...

Friends around me often got into emo-ing even if it was a very very very tiny little matter. I understand why they emo-ed because life was kinda stressful back then...we were often "threatened" by lots of ridiculous tests and exams...therefore, i REALLY won't take their emo-ness so seriously and i REALLY didn't blame them for releasing their emo-ness on me because i know what friends are for... FRIENDS should be always together and to support each other in good times and bad times...

But what i really found weird and triggered my anger was that no matter how well i treat or be considerate to the particular person, that person will still find his/her way to make me feel very bad and sorry...People from SS always made me feel that i'm not humble enough and i'm constantly "chuan" them... I'm really speechless when i came to situation like this... there was a person who asked me about my CGPA when my exam result was released. I told that person about my CGPA and i felt like i received a huge punch or waves of humiliation from the person's reply... i was poured with questions and i answered the all the questions truthfully..but being an honest person is not something very nice too.. It just ended up that i was like offending that person... Man, it's hard to be nice to people...So, DON'T BE TOO HONEST AND KIND, MY FRIENDS!!!

It's hard when coming to assignment issues... Communication is hard!!! I tried my very best to be considerate and to hold my feelings when problems matter me... When problem comes, i would like to laugh it off so that i would not affect the feelings of other people around me because things that meant to be done together won't be finished if i were to show my dislikes or what-so-ever. There is no need to "fuck" when shit comes...I've been trying to negotiate and work my best to suit everybody's wants when it comes to things that meant to be done together...i tried to maintain a good relationship among different parites in my assignments..i don't mind if i were to sacrify my time for rest or to fill up my stomach as long as my teammates were pleased.. i don't mind to be a person who seemed like do not have any stands at all....

However, i guess there aren't many people who understand what i've done so far...oh no, NONE i think.... but i know...i need to think optimisticly that what i had or what i am encountering now is just part of the path of my life that i need to walk through to colourise it... It's not just a game but it's a mental war...a WAR i swear... I'll make my rounds once i'm a warrior....

I guess i need to be thankful to all the shits that i'm involving in right now... I wish could be better... well, let time proves and teach this IDOTIC yitmun what the real world is....

Aza aza FIGHTING...

I

I...
seem to...
become lost...

I...
who used to spend most of my time...
talking on the phone everyday.....

now...
couldn't even speak a sentence properly...

cuz...
the more i speak...
the harder for me to control myself...

Fool's only tears...

i...
began to understand...
what it meant by...
the more i gain...
the lonelier i am..............

i...
i know that i was immature back then...

now...
i start to ask myself...
was my decision a wrong one???
nobody knows...

i...
started to envy....
envy bro who has yen..
envy hyung who has eomma...

i...
started to question myself...
what i have...???

i...
i know i'm like a ghost....
i have nothing but myself...

it's not the bill that matters...
would it taste nice if u have it alone?

i...
feel sorry...
for unable to throw it out to ya'll through the phone...

i know...
i need to struggle...

cuz...
luck is not always standing by my side...

but...
does "struggle" means everything???

i...
always reminiscence...
the time i used to spend with my loved ones...
the time i used to aegyo to my loved ones...

but now...
it seems hard to have a take-2...

i...
now....
regret....
for not taking every matter...
in the past...
as valuable as now....

Finally realised..
that i'm nothing without ya'll...
i was wrong...
forgive me.